Cancer,
I am not starting with a DEAR…because you are not someone I love or even give the slightest shit about.
We met in August 2015, a few days before my birthday when you decided to start the fight with my mom. I remember hearing the words for the woman whom I love most. Your mom has cancer .I thought the worst. I spent days at work behind my computer scared of the unknown battle that was ahead of her, but I had no fear my bulldozer of a mom would beat this.
It was on my actual Birthday that year that my mom went and had 17 inches of her colon removed to get the cancer out. Truth is from that and every birthday since then when I blow out my birthday candles I wish that cancer would go away and never effect anyone I love dearly.
Two years later, we have now met. I want you to know I am not afraid of you. I want you to know that you the minute and I have met you have changed my life I have become an even more grateful and appreciative woman. I wake up sometimes thinking, Am I in a nightmare, but then quickly remember No I am not. I am in this thing called life. I wake up and breathe beautiful fresh air, I get to wake up to two amazing little toddlers with the cutest bed head, and a husband that undoubtedly loves me more than I really ever knew. I have so much to be grateful for, to love, and to look forward too.
My surgery is now scheduled and I cannot wait for it to be over to know that most of you will be gone. I will be strong and I WILL FIGHT every ounce of you. Just as I watched my mom, my best friend win, I WILL WIN.
“Every road is a slippery slope
There is always a hand that you can hold on to
Looking deeper through the telescope
You can see that your home’s inside of you.” Jason Mraz
I am so beyond thankful for the hands of all you my friends and family. Thank you again from every ounce of my soul. ME